The sugar is leaving my body

Well, if this first day of trying to eat a whole foods diet (or, as close as I can get at the moment) has taught me anything it's that I'm seriously addicted to sugar.  Seriously.  Addicted.  Seriously.

It was okay this morning; I had some hot cereal with milk and honey.  And can I just say a huge amen to bees.  Please?  Thank you.  So honey, milk, cereal...not 'regular' cereal though, because that isn't whole foods approved.  I had those big shredded wheat blocks that I honestly didn't even realize they still manufactured.  It was good, I was hungry, it was warm, I was full, all was right in the world.  I had some tea, with milk and poison (aka white sugar) and life was fine.

Then after a full morning of cold air outside and lots of exercise I came home to make lunch.  I was going to make creamed tuna, which we all like.  Tuna in bechamel sauce with peas over rice.  Brown rice, if you please.  And I even HAD brown rice, which I'm amazed by, but I was hungry and the baby was fussy and I thought:

What's the harm in using pasta?  I've got these pasta shells, and I'm not going to toss them...

So I made white pasta, with tuna and sauce.  I ate two bowls.  And then it hit me.  Serious Sugar Cravings.  I don't know why, maybe because of the pasta, maybe not.  Maybe because I've usually had three cups of tea with milk and sugar in each by noon every day, instead of just one.  Maybe because I had just nursed the baby; I don't know.  But I was desperate.

I wanted to, like, eat a spoon of sugar.

So I did the next best thing.  I ate all the leftover beets from supper yesterday.  That's desperate, people, eating beets for a sugar rush.  And I made a cup of tea in case my other little addiction, caffeine, was contributing to this problem.  I tried it without sugar, which as I expected tasted like drinking dirt with water in it.  Oh my gosh how do you healthy people DO THIS?  So I put a very small bit of honey in it and forced myself to say "Oh this is deLICIOUs!"  Blech.

I feel light-headed.  Which clearly isn't because I haven't eaten enough, or eaten unhealthily, it's just the sugar.  Leaving my body.

I might cry.